I have a sporadic routine. When I have a good day, I take my meds around 8pm, dick off on the computer for a hour or two until I get really drowsy, then I switch from big screen to small screen and fall asleep anywhere from 10pm - 2am. This was not the case last night. I stayed up until about midnight playing an old classic shooter with people on Discord. Then I went to my social security… See more
Posts tagged +mental health
I've felt this way a for a long time, nothing really brings me pleasure anymore. The days come and go, time is meaningless, if only for the purpose of labeling before and now. But now is never now, it's always fleeting. The only feeling I look forward to is the drugged feeling that encompasses my body after taking the medication. A cheap knock off of a buzz, something I can't attain anymore… See more
Tired of the symptoms from my condition, life is difficult, doesn't seem worth it. I can't hold down anything consistently, from work to relationships, the delusions break through and I become paranoid. It's frustrating. The meds help but don't entirely get rid of the symptoms I face. This disease is going to knock a couple decades off my life at best, at worst, turn me into a dementia… See more