I had a weird demonic dream, was very evil and it's stuck in my mind, trying to find reason within it. It wasn't just one dream, it was the same dream twice, at two different points during the night. I dreamt of a skull with rotten flesh and no eyes in their sockets, looked like the girl from the exorcist. It said "1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8" and I repeated those same numbers verbatim without any thought… See more
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I didn't do anything today besides use my pc and play some boomer shooters on discord. I figure I'll tell the tale of how I met Monkey Man. I was homeless and sleeping down by the river, there was a large pavilion building right on the river that I usually set up camp to sleep. There was a bench there, and this older man, short in stature and wiry looking would sit on the bench, unravel a… See more
I have a sporadic routine. When I have a good day, I take my meds around 8pm, dick off on the computer for a hour or two until I get really drowsy, then I switch from big screen to small screen and fall asleep anywhere from 10pm - 2am. This was not the case last night. I stayed up until about midnight playing an old classic shooter with people on Discord. Then I went to my social security… See more
I've felt this way a for a long time, nothing really brings me pleasure anymore. The days come and go, time is meaningless, if only for the purpose of labeling before and now. But now is never now, it's always fleeting. The only feeling I look forward to is the drugged feeling that encompasses my body after taking the medication. A cheap knock off of a buzz, something I can't attain anymore… See more
Tired of the symptoms from my condition, life is difficult, doesn't seem worth it. I can't hold down anything consistently, from work to relationships, the delusions break through and I become paranoid. It's frustrating. The meds help but don't entirely get rid of the symptoms I face. This disease is going to knock a couple decades off my life at best, at worst, turn me into a dementia… See more
I designed it in photoshop and had Claude code everything. I used to hand code all this and it'd take a good amount of time, I am surprised at how good Claude does this, even if it messes up a bit, you can correct it and quickly fix it. The time savings are obscene, the apocolapyse is neigh and the 5th horsemen is Claude. Good luck tech industry, I am glad I am not apart of you for future's sake… See more