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 I've felt this way a for a long time, nothing really brings me pleasure anymore. The days come and go, time is meaningless, if only for the purpose of labeling before and now. But now is never now, it's always fleeting.

The only feeling I look forward to is the drugged feeling that encompasses my body after taking the medication. A cheap knock off of a buzz, something I can't attain anymore due to health reasons.

I used to love alcohol, I drank it in excess, never missing a day. A missed day would be a waste.

The best alcohol is the beers after a shift of work. Not to get drunk, but to nurse the buzz. That forever uplifting spirit.

But alas, all good things must come to an end, for in life, god gives and god takes.